For a while now I have been trying to figure out what has been going on with me. However, I think now I have found the answer. I have a heavy heart and its filled with hurt, grief, sorrow and depression.

 

I believe it all started when my father dies in November of 2004. I didn’t grieve until the following year. And ever since, it’s been difficult with hardly anyone understanding me with the exception of my wife. Then in May of 2006 my first baby wound up being a miscarriage and that was hard enough. Then things seem to calm down over the next few years, but I started sinking into depression and having anxiety or panic attacks. So thins year I finally got on meds to help control my mood swings and emotions, but I read about the destruction of our wildlife and the senceless killings of Wolves and their pack and I cry for them when I se the sad images. It seems like no matter how many petitions I sign, or talk to others about my side of the issue, I seem to get kicked in the face. I know I should not be like this over wildlife, but I can not help it, its who I am and it hurts to see a helpless animal stare at the hunter for the last time and take a bullet just because the hunter could. When will it all stop. I see on the news cops killing trained family dogs in cold blood, I also see the senceless killing of ourselves. And for what? Money? Power? Or for the game of it? I think its all a big game and its only going o get worse before it gets better.

 I told myself that I will try to be the voice to those who have no voice and help those who need it the most and ask nothing in return.

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